February 2026 Update
“For evil is in the world: it may be in the world to stay. No creed and no dogma are proof against it, and indeed no person is; it is always the naked person, alone, who, over and over and over again, must wrest his salvation from these black jaws. Perhaps young Martin was finding a new and more somber meaning in the command: “Overcome evil with good.” The command does not suggest that to overcome evil is to eradicate it.”
– James Baldwin. Essay on Martin Luther King Jr. February 1961.[^1]
I think perhaps the privileged of us, whether racially or financially or geographically, are now staring this truth in the face. Evil is in the world, and we are foundering in it. There are traditions in which we might find the resources to overcome it, but for many the truly American tradition of severing oneself from tradition, has severed us from hope. We might look back and see that things are not so bad as they once were, and that we can fight to make them better. We do not have to look far. Black history month is a good start. I suppose the above quote from my man James Baldwin might seem harsh or pessimistic, but I see a pragmatic hope. For what else can we do with evil, but overcome it with good? It will take (as Baldwin was fond of saying) every ounce of our stamina, but it can be overcome. And I dare say it will be. Go read some Baldwin, some Martin Luther King Jr. Some Hurston. Listen to some Sam Cooke and Don Shirley. Try some new things and suggest things to your friends and make art to help the world feel more human. Call your congressman and senators. Protest. Donate to the people on the frontlines. Go read the words of the Apostle who wrote the words that Baldwin quotes.
Writing
Well things did not go to plan. The pressures of life and the news crushed my resolutions. I have not given up on them, but am trying to forgive myself for failing and moving on. I did work on my novel. I did write an essay. I did make some music. Not as much as I wanted to, but it is better than nothing. I hope to make writing more of a repository of the energy that I have historically wasted on video games and technology. And I am picking up the queries again (apparently the first couple weeks of January is a bad time for it).
If you want to know what querying is like here is a great Peanuts comic:
Music
I got together with a few friends and did a jam session in a local studio space. Was a lot of fun and going to try and do it more often. Also recorded a demo for my Tess song that is not done yet. But I've really got to get on those demos. I have a lot of songs written that I haven't done proper recordings of yet. I've decided to just do a demo album and accept that I can't do professional sound quality from my home. My eventual goal is to get in a studio to get some professional sounding tracks. Hence the jam sessions. But jam sessions are also life giving by themselves.
Reading
I started reading Robinson Crusoe which has been fun. I enjoy Defoe's use of capitalization. Here's an example of when he speaks of the Impulse that causes him to ignore the advice of his father and run away to sea. It seemed “a secret over ruling Decree that hurries us on to be the Instruments of our own Destruction, even tho' it be before us, and that we rush upon it with our Eyes open.”
I also finished Crime and Punishment on my birthday. I was impressed as usual with Dostoevsky. This book engrossed me so violently on my first read that I didn't notice, as I tried to on the second time through, just how well planned and constructed everything is. He is a master of plot and character. Raskolnikov reveals to us (or to me) that murder is not so far from our hearts as we think. There is also a theme about the necessity of Law and a system of punishing those who violate human rights. That suffering can give us an opportunity for redemption. This is perhaps the only story by Dostoevsky that has a 'happy' ending. Here's a quote:
“Perhaps it was just because of the strength of his desires that he had thought himself a man to whom more was permissible than to others.”
[1] Baldwin, James. “Martin Luther King.” Collected Essays. The Library of America, 1998. Page 651.
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